One hundred fifty-three days. That's how many days there are until I move out of my house and go out on my own.
After that point, the chances of me living with my parents ever again are slim. Although this idea is exciting, it's extremely terrifying. For the next four years of my life, I'll be living in a small dorm room with a roommate. I have never had to share a room with someone before (for more than a week or so). Sadly, since I'm an only child (and home schooled), socialization hasn't opened quite as many doors. In a few months, I'll be thrown into an atmosphere where I'm around people 24/7. Although I don't feel unprepared, I am curious to see how the first few months play out.
I know my blog sounds like a broken record sometimes...but it's all good.
Last night, I had a moment of insanity and decided that I absolutely NEEDED to cut my bangs. Now they're uneven and I'm scared to chop at them any more. Ah well. I can just say that it's me trying to express my "individuality?"
We sang this at my youth group on wednesday. Since then, it's been stuck in my head and I've been singing it constantly. Although it usually annoys me when a song is stuck in my head for a long amount of time, for some reason, I can't get sick of this song.
For those of you who don't know, I am currently working on getting things in order to where I can move to Texas next summer. Although I'll only be staying there for a month and a half, the reality is setting in that I'll have to support myself. This means booking photography jobs so I can have cashflow, finding places to live, and finding out how in the world I'm going to live on my own. Don't get me wrong, I'm completely excited about moving back home, but I'm starting to realize that I'll miss my church family. I've gotten to be very close with quite a few people...and I'm now realizing that I'll really only be able to see them once or twice a year from this point on. The reality of approaching adulthood is finally setting in. When I was having this realization a couple of nights ago, I just started writing. This is what happened to come out. I wrote and recorded this song within about 30 minutes. It's poorly written and the melody has quite a few issues (as in, I don't exactly have one yet...so it's extremely pitchy...oops.), but it's a learning process.
Lyrics:
I'm going out on my own Leaving the place I once called home I'm running away and never turning back But I promise I won't forget you
I'll remember to send you a postcard when I reach Texas I'll smell the smells and see the sights and let you know I'm doing well No worries will hold me back now and I'll be thinking - thinking of you
It's been a year since I left my hometown We lost touch and I don't know how you're holding out I've grown up and learned some lessons along the way but now I'm ready to move on once again
I'll remember to send you a postcard when I reach Texas I'll smell the smells and see the sights and let you know I'm doing well No worries will hold me back now and I'll be thinking - thinking of you"
It's been five years since I saw you last We've both grown up and forgotten our past Life had a way of working out for the best I can honestly say I have no regrets
but I'll remember to send you a postcard when I reach Texas I will smell the smells and see the sights and let you know I'm doing well no worries will hold me back now and I will be thinking - I will be thinking - of you
