Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Monday, August 30, 2010

Darling, so it goes...

Tonight, I've been looking through old photo albums on facebook. Reminiscing over past memories really made me see how much change and growth I've gone through in the past few years.

Summer 2008
This is honestly my favorite picture. Ever. It was taken at the last school we visited while in Guatemala. These kids had very little, but were so thankful for what they had. Their hearts were so open to anything and everything. They had so little, but they made up for it in love. It goes on to prove just how much love is needed in this world. For some, it's all they have. And yet, they remain happy. I always smile when I think of these kids. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about them and pray for them. Before I went to Guatemala, I was always told it would change my life. Honestly, I didn't see how until about a month or two after I got home. The two weeks we spent in Xela went by so fast that I couldn't quite process it. Things still will randomly remind me of the trip, and I can't help but thank God for the experience I had. I love these kids and I always will.

Summer 2009
This was taken last year in Guatemala. Once again, it was one of our last nights. I absolutely love these people. Over the process of that week, I gained a new family. This year, instead of staying on the ministry campus like we had the previous year, we went to a small town a few hours away from that main campus. During the three days we were there, we stayed at a small church that had opened their doors to let us stay. The common area where we ate and met didn't even have a roof. In fact, the area wasn't secure hardly at all. We discovered this when we awoke to a stray dog peeking in to where we were sleeping. It was quite a confusing way to wake up. Because of the swine flu, we were not able to visit schools due to them being shut down. So instead of going to different schools and doing dramas, we went to public parks. This was a very different atmosphere. Because we were working with children as well as adults, not everyone was so accepting to the beliefs we were sharing. But regardless of that fact, so many lives were changed. Including mine.

Summer 2010
Although this picture does not exactly show anything super exciting, it kind of describes a small part of my life at the moment. This picture was taken on saturday at UNCG. Although I don't want to attend UNCG next fall, it does (in a way) represent a bit of change going on in my life. One of my dear friends (Sarah) just started going there. It's been a definite change, but it's also opened my eyes to the fact that I'll be in college in less than a year. College has always been one of those things that has seemed to be way off in my future. In reality (a place I'm not too fond of sometimes), it's not. I'm going to be becoming my own person. I will no longer live under my parents roof. I will, essentally, be free.
Very strange.

With that being said, I'm excited about my future. To see where God has taken me in the past few years, makes me wonder where I'll be this time next year.

I'm excited for this grand adventure.

Friday, August 27, 2010

"Here's your challenge..."

Tonight, I visited a youth group run by old teammates from Guatemala.
For praise and worship, they just played music off of CD's and lowered the lights. At first, I thought it might be awkward. I was proven wrong.

Instantly, quite a few of the youth entered into worship and the whole feel of the room changed. I felt more into worship with just those CD's playing than I have with a whole band playing.

Recently, I've been praying about God giving me new challenges. Little did I know, I would get a pretty good one tonight. First off, I'm praising God and just having a fantastic time in his presence. Then I hear a little voice say, "are you ready?"

Next thing I know, I'm stepping up on stage with a microphone.
I honestly still have no idea how I got from just praising God, to being up on stage. Then, I heard an almost audible voice say, "here's your challenge".

Without hesitation, I started saying everything God had put on my heart. I preached to a youth group for about 5 minutes. I was more in my element than I have been in years.

Where did it all come from? Definitely not my brain. If you've ever talked to me in person, you know that I stutter quite a bit (or talk really fast). Did I stutter up on stage? Not a bit.

It was all God. This is all still processing, but I thought I would share a little taste of my night!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Last night.

Last night took me way out of my comfort zone.
If you would have told me 3 months ago that I would be singing on stage in youth last night - I would have laughed at you. No joke.

But it was all for Jesus - so it was all worth it!

(Shortest blog entry? I do believe so.)

Sunday, August 15, 2010

The Cliche.

The rain today made my day way beyond cliche. You know how you always laugh when it rains when something sad happens in movies? It's always expected. Well what happened today isn't necessarily sad, but it was a new step in the direction of growing up.

Holy chocolate chip cookies.

My lovely friend Sarah left for college today. As we said goodbye, it started to rain. Are you kidding me? Not only am I realizing I won't have a friend who lives near me (which is the only thing that kept me sane last school year), but one of my closest friends will be 3 hours away. Huzzah!

I thought I had realized this a few months ago, but it didn't really hit me until about 30 minutes after we said bye. Very strange. Another thing I realized at that moment was that in 357 days, I'll be doing the exact same thing. I will be on my way to Tulsa, Oklahoma with my whole life packed in my car. This thought seemed so far away - until now. Mom told me this morning to make a box and label it "college things" so I can start picking things for my dorm room. My dorm room. In less than one year, I will no longer be living with my parents. ONE YEAR. Where has the time gone?

Eh. I'm sure just about everyone in the world is writing a post like this right now. So many people are in my exact situation.

This is all so strange.